Back again

Hi everyone -Gee I didn't realise how long it's been since I logged on with a post.
But here I am and I am here to stay.

Where have I been you ask? Well just the same old news -I have been sick .It's like 2 steps forward then 3 steps back. I just cant seem to win.

I have been trying (yes very trying ha ha )to put on a brave face and  I know there are people out there worse off than me...Actually I am not OK with that statement  I don't care about other people I am being selfish here and I don't care (please forgive me God tomorrow I will be good) until then I am going to rant on like the drug crazed woman I have become.

I am in pain lots of horrible pain. So I am still using my pain killers which I hate as I feel like a junkie (not that I know what a junnkie feels like)  My hair is falling out at an alarming rate.I figure another month and I will have nothing left on my head.I am doing a sort of comb over thing with it and just trying not to even touch my hair but it still is coming out.
I am also swelling up everywhere so I guess I look like a swollen bald cripple lady with crap legs.
I still cant walk properly and only go out when nessacary as I just cant cope.I have a stick and it helps but....

Gee I can see why Kev is in love with me.....boo hoo I wouldnt blame him if he left me he then wouldnt have to cope with my crap..

I am going to stop my post now as I am crying and I know I will say something that will hurt and I don't want that.

                                                                     So until next time
                                                                                Bye.